Today is 06/04/2026

I don't know if I really got much to say, but I want to make this place less empty and "under construction"-looking. I am really goddamn tired, but that's everyday. Trying to find new work/make progress as a streamer(yes, I know how long that will take) 'cause current job is fucking bullshit. Well, that's most jobs for me, I suppose. Trying to think if things to talk about, beyond just literally stating what I've been doing. I want these to be like, life updates, rather than just a grocery list of activities and tasks.

I've been getting increasingly fascinated (leaning towards a mild obsession?) with angels. Like, I've found them pretty cool for a long time, but it's a properly invested interest now. I want a halo and wings so bad (T~T). I wanna stim with my halo. I'd grab it and try to pull and stretch it. I'd turn the lights off just to look at it glow. Though, chances are, whether I want it or not, this desire and interest will one day suddenly disappear without warning. And I will become another version of myself that I'll feel is integral to who I am as a person before, it too, will fade. And I'll look back, once again, wondering what was happening during that era and what made me think the things I did at the time. I dislike this aspect of myself. Though, not know how to remedy it. How to maintain a consistent personality for more than a few months. Used to make me spiral with panic over who I am. It's presently more just really frustrating. Well, didn't take long for this to become vent-y. While this may be my space to use how I see fit, I don't like being so inclined towards complaining and and being kind of a downer. Venting is fine, but moderation in everything, you know?

That was words. Anyway, do I got anything else to talk about? New album in the works. Though, I've been struggling to find the motivation + artblock. So it's going very slowly.

Wish I had more positive things to talk about, but I am drawing blanks. Went to the convenience store and took a short walk with a friend last night. That was nice.

Farewell, for now.